So my move in went relatively smoothly. I arrived on Tuesday afternoon, spent 5 hours arranging and unpacking, and took a shower in time to drive to Panera and eat a celebratory cinnamon bun by my lonesome. Afterwards I realized I was still hungry because I hadn’t eaten dinner, so I stopped at this local market and bought a jumbo oatmeal cookie the size of my head. Following a long talk with my mother, I turned on the television and gobbled down my cookie. I’m pretty sure I was asleep 6 seconds later. And god have I been tired. Yesterday I spent most of the morning and afternoon getting essentials done: I shopped for groceries, opened a bank account, went to target for some necessities. Afterwards, I came home (home?) and went for a long walk all around town, even bumping into this Jazz at 5 event at the city center. As I tried to develop some sense of direction, I found myself wandering in a nice way. It was peaceful but lonely. I think that the most challenging part about this isn’t the drive or the move; it’s figuring out what to do with myself afterwards. It’s figuring out how to be and act and live in a place where I know nobody. It’s realizing that on a rainy Thursday I don’t have anybody to meet for coffee, then reminding myself that the same goes for Friday nights and every other night. I have to say that I’m afraid of this loneliness, but I’m hoping it will pass. Next week I’ll begin training and orientation, then classes start the following week. Until then, I don’t have many opportunities to meet people, and I need to accept that. I’m going to make a conscious effort to put myself out there and meet people, to join some sort of group I’m interested in. In the past few days, I’ve even considered looking on; however, I’m not sure if that’s a normal way to make friends? I guess what I’m saying is that I’m really afraid that I won’t make friends or won’t know how or will feel alone here for a long time. I’m going to do my best to embrace solitude and explore on my own for now and to put myself out there when I can. Any suggestions?


if yr atheism involves belittling people’s faith and attempting to prove to everyone that god doesn’t exist don’t talk to me don’t come near me don’t breathe on me thanks

(Source: churchrat)


hi everyone, it’s dorothy gale from kansas, and i nominate the wicked witch of the west for the ice bucket challenge

I am currently eating a Frosty in a Motel 6 outside of Cleveland, Ohio. So that’s how I’m doing