So my move in went relatively smoothly. I arrived on Tuesday afternoon, spent 5 hours arranging and unpacking, and took a shower in time to drive to Panera and eat a celebratory cinnamon bun by my lonesome. Afterwards I realized I was still hungry because I hadn’t eaten dinner, so I stopped at this local market and bought a jumbo oatmeal cookie the size of my head. Following a long talk with my mother, I turned on the television and gobbled down my cookie. I’m pretty sure I was asleep 6 seconds later. And god have I been tired. Yesterday I spent most of the morning and afternoon getting essentials done: I shopped for groceries, opened a bank account, went to target for some necessities. Afterwards, I came home (home?) and went for a long walk all around town, even bumping into this Jazz at 5 event at the city center. As I tried to develop some sense of direction, I found myself wandering in a nice way. It was peaceful but lonely. I think that the most challenging part about this isn’t the drive or the move; it’s figuring out what to do with myself afterwards. It’s figuring out how to be and act and live in a place where I know nobody. It’s realizing that on a rainy Thursday I don’t have anybody to meet for coffee, then reminding myself that the same goes for Friday nights and every other night. I have to say that I’m afraid of this loneliness, but I’m hoping it will pass. Next week I’ll begin training and orientation, then classes start the following week. Until then, I don’t have many opportunities to meet people, and I need to accept that. I’m going to make a conscious effort to put myself out there and meet people, to join some sort of group I’m interested in. In the past few days, I’ve even considered looking on Meetup.com; however, I’m not sure if that’s a normal way to make friends? I guess what I’m saying is that I’m really afraid that I won’t make friends or won’t know how or will feel alone here for a long time. I’m going to do my best to embrace solitude and explore on my own for now and to put myself out there when I can. Any suggestions?
hi everyone, it’s dorothy gale from kansas, and i nominate the wicked witch of the west for the ice bucket challenge